Motivation or lack there of.....

What can one do for motivation?? Any thoughts??  I feel like I am floundering about without a purpose.  In my previous life I used to be so independent, hard working, driven, SUCCESSFUL...etc, etc.  Here in Switzerland it seems as I am just existing - doing things to pass the time.  Where/when does this feeling end?  I need a purpose and I need to get MOTIVATED.  It's hard to follow a plan when there is no plan....  

It's been a year 1/2 since we have moved to Switzerland.  At first it's okay not having a job but then it gets to be a little much.  I think that it would help if we had children but having a child just to have something to do is not the way to go about it!!  LOL

I am going to try to audit a photography class at Webster University to learn some more things about Photography. Really would like to be better - maybe even do it professionally BUT no idea where to even start.

Anyway - I have a friend visiting from NYC this week.  It's so nice to have her here.  It feels like a little piece of home has come to visit.  :) 

After she leaves on Friday I need to start getting my sh** together.    I need to dust of the self books that I have.  If I only knew where I put them.........

The newness of it all......

So, this week I am socializing.  My parents who were here for a week are now gone and then I have a friend coming in on Friday.  This gives me 4 days to socialize with 'new' people (as I call them) and hopefully make some friends in my new city.  I had cafe today with a girl who was really nice (although I think a tad younger than I).  The plus is that she lives in the near vicinity of me which is rare.  I didn't think that anyone lived in my neighborhood.  It is soooo quiet.  I hate all of this - Hi, my name is....will you go to coffee with me and be my friend shit BUT it is necessary.  We all need human contact to survive (unfortunately!).  The sad part about it is in my previous life in the States I was very social.  In this life - not so much.

Wed - it's the same thing and Thursday it is a coffee with the free spirits group from the women's club.  Might do some obedience training with Callie on Wed and Thursday after the coffee I have having some friends from Geneva over for lunch.  

All in all it is a good week.  I don't feel like going back to bed and pulling the sheets over my head.  Quite a bit of improvement from the weeks before!

Lessons..........

I actually ventured into the city on Tuesday. I had to change over a gym membership from Geneva to Lausanne (who am I kidding. I never go....). Afterwards, I made a quick stop at Globus. In the store there was this old lady in front of me moving soooooooo ssssssllllllooooowwwwwllllllyyyyyy. Every time I tried to move around her she would end up right in front of me. I (not so quietly cursed her under my breath) and made a mad dash to get around her.

I stop at the parking garage to pay my ticket and the f'ing thing doesn't work. My ticket was creased and not reading properly. Now what am I supposed to do?? There was no one in the office as it was closed for lunch (surprise, surprise). I press the info button on the machine and say - Hello. My ticket doesn't work. Not a big deal you think right?? REMEMBER I am trying to do this in FRENCH. UGH!!! There was a voice that came over the loud speaker and the man said blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Shit - I thought to myself. What the F did that guy just say???? I look around and there is a lady behind me and she said well????....and I say "I don't understand". So she takes my ticket from me and proceeds to HELP me and because of her this man could fix my ticket. Guess who the lady was??? Yep, the old woman that I cursed while in Globus.

Lesson - don't curse anyone out loud. Keep it in......
I wonder if she helped me just to teach me a lesson??

So I am procrastinating.......

Here are a few shots from last week's photography class.

Our assignment was photo jouralism. I don't think that I really captured it but at least I had fun!

Gathering around the baby.




The market in Nice



Fish market in Marseille.

Unpacking.......

SUCKS!

Ugh - how many pairs of shoes can one person own (and I am talking about my husband too!). I hate, hate, hate all of this 'stuff' all over the place. It makes me want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep.

The hubby is lucky. He is the one that gets to work and escape from all of this madness. Not me - nope. I just get to sit here amongst all of our stuff. Not know where to put anything is for the birds.

I am going to do this the easy way.....

I am going to throw everything away - which should of been done BEFORE we moved.

Transition

Well the packers are here and we should be all moved to Lausanne by tomorrow. I have mixed feelings.....
I don't want to leave Geneva not because of the town itself but because of the friends that i have made here. I am finally getting settled only to pick up and leave again. Moving is so stressful.
On the other hand L is only 45 minutes away from G and people can come visit (and vice versa). AND maybe I will like L better than G.
I guess we will see.

I don't understand people.....

I had a rough week today. We are getting ready for a move to Lausanne (hence the title change on the blog) and I am a bit stressed out.

On Tuesday I went to Manor to get my pictures printed out for a photography class that I am taking. There is an older woman in front of me that has no idea how to work the machine. She simply hands her camera to one of the people working there and starts to get belligerent about how bad the service is, etc, etc. It instantly became obvious to me that this woman was a whack job. She starts ranting and raving, looks at me and says"I am going to be awhile, go get a cup of coffee". I simply said Non - and she cursed me with her eyes. When it is my turn to use the machine her photos begin to print and she literally shoves me aside and starts ranting at me in French. I do my best to ignore her as she continues to shove and push. Even after I move over to the side she is still shoving and pushing. Still, I continue to ignore her. As I am paying for my photos she begins to curse me out loud. Although, I didn't quite understand what she said. SOOooo if I don't understand the curse, it really isn't effective, right?? At this point I am flustered b/c this woman is screaming at me in the store.  As I am leaving I manage to drop my jacket. As a result some Tylenol fall out of the pocket. 

She begins yelling - DRUGS....DRUGS....

Yesterday I go to Aligro. My first time and boy was it stressful. Almost like being in the States with so many choices! I get home with a trunk full of goodies for our party this Saturday. I pick up the case of 6 bottles of wine and of course the handle breaks and the box falls shattering two of the bottles. UGH. Whatever. Flustered (again) I start loading up our elevator with the purchases and proceed to head to our apartment. Instead of the elevator going up it heads down to the basement. A woman gets in (or at least attempts to) and looks at all of my stuff. I made no apologies for all of the items. She looks at me and says in French something to the effect of - Don't you like to be organized??? I said Non. She said - really??? You don't like to be organized. And I repeated again in French - Nope, I don't like it one bit and that is just the way it is.

What I really wanted to say is "don't fu** with me you lazy a** piece of sh** taking the elevator up one flight of stairs. You should of walked. And you have no business questioning my organizational skills just because I have a lot of stuff to take up to my apartment. That is what elevators are for so go to he**".

Unfortunately (or Fortunately for her) my French language skills are not that good.